They say, if it happened it must have been for good, but what about the vice versa. Life is somewhat derailed, objectives somewhat nonaligned, thoughts wandering out of control, emotions going stray and hell lot of things, which i never experienced or never wanted to, are now haunting me . I am thinking : Are all my problems mere perception or they are real.
I have at present no unduly demand of friends and family. They have given me enough freedom as it would for the sage. I am caught in the whirl wind of personal attachments and a dream of growth. There is a mad man inside me with a strong wish to succeed and to sacrifice everything in this attempt. Alas, wishes require determination and hard work missing in this case.
I am mentally exhausted, frustrated and on the verge of depression. When you are uncertain about the future, any work can yield satisfaction. I have decided my future career goals, now failure and delay is blowing my mind. Neither can I relax, nor enjoy.
I am still sane enough to denounce a time tested Indian psychotherapy of every mental hurricane : An arranged marriage. And whenever I speak up, only harsh statements are coming out and turning unpopular. The addiction of Facebook and choking of release of emotions is destroying self belief.
I am mentally exhausted, frustrated and on the verge of depression. When you are uncertain about the future, any work can yield satisfaction. I have decided my future career goals, now failure and delay is blowing my mind. Neither can I relax, nor enjoy.
I am still sane enough to denounce a time tested Indian psychotherapy of every mental hurricane : An arranged marriage. And whenever I speak up, only harsh statements are coming out and turning unpopular. The addiction of Facebook and choking of release of emotions is destroying self belief.
2 comments:
An Algorithm:
Start
1. Arrange things that bother you by priority (dependent on variables)
2. Go through the list. Pick the nth priority first - VERY IMP that you work in increasing order of priorities, the order has to do with relief
3. Analyze the REAL (defined by how hurt you are, same variables as in step 1 govern this) requirement for this priority.
4. If (priority = High), table it.
If (priority = Medium), try to substitute a lower priority need (eg. instead of an immediate marriage, a GF would help ;) )
If (priority = Low), Kill it
5. REPEAT until you are left with REAL priorities.
6. AND Decide that for next 6 months, no brooding over the derailing of your train while trying to achieve those.
Try If it works, i will get you a program. :)
hmmm..nyc algo will definitely work on it :)
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